Making Changes


I am so excited to write today’s post because it includes some more before and afters and knitting!

A year or so ago I knit a sweater called OWLS by Kate Davies. I made it out of Berroco Ultra Alpaca Chunky in this gorgeous heathered blue and I cranked it out so quickly that I even surprised myself. I was in love with this sweater and couldn’t believe that I was so lucky to have been able to knit this thing and it fit well. I was at my heaviest at around 270 pounds. I thought it fit well and was pretty darn good looking on me with a 44″ bust. I wore it a couple more times but our winter was very mild and I didn’t wear my knit sweaters much at all during the season. They were put in the cedar chest for the summer and I only recently pulled it out to wash them up and get all my sweaters ready for the winter and fall. Perfect timing, because the last couple weeks have really started veering toward fall and I’m loving wearing the knits every day!

So. This past week I wore my OWLS for the first time all season and I enjoyed how warm I was and how drapey and luscious the fabric was. The only problem was that the buttons wouldn’t stay closed because they had no pull on them from my body being in the way. The sweater was almost sloppy how large it was compared to my new frame. I found myself falling even more in love with this sweater, especially at the prospect that it was a little too big. I spent the entire bus ride home debating if I could install a zipper instead to give myself a little more of a form-fitting sweater.

I went to Joann Fabrics and poured through their selection of zippers, matching my sweater up with a beautiful charcoal colored zipper of the perfect length. For a mere $5 I had the tools in hand to change my sweater forever.

I went home and waited for husband to come home. I spent some time ripping out the button bands and cutting the buttons off so I could continue ripping. When it was done, the edge laid so nicely and I knew this would work. I found my sewing supplies and pinned the zipper in place before hand-sewing the zipper down through the selvage edge I had created with the knitted button band. This proved to be much easier than I anticipated and, though I could have simply zipped up and down with my sewing machine, I found the gratification much higher with the hand-sewing.

Husband came home shortly after I finished the first zipper and was pinning in the other half. He said it looked really good and I got even more excited to try it on when it was done. See, I had no idea if this would work- I wasn’t sure if I’d lost enough inches for this sweater to fit properly when I was done sewing in this 28″ zipper, but I had to try something. I kept sewing and eventually finished. I took a deep breath and tried on the sweater, getting the zipper up with absolutely no trouble. I was so happy that I practically threw my phone at my husband and made him take photos in the middle of my dimly lit living room.

So here’s a before and after. I am still not quite to 50 pounds (muscle soreness from Monday night’s 9/11 hero WOD has me stuck at one pound shy of 50), but I feel amazing whenever I put this sweater on. I noticed how much lighter it was without the extra weight of the button bands, and the neckline fits like it’s supposed to.

It’s been two days since the hero workout and my hamstrings do not want to work and neither do my arms for that matter. I’m not wearing any knits today but I’m hopeful that in a couple weeks I’ll be able to wear my sweaters every day and be cozy warm all the time.


Just 10 Minutes

I only have a few minutes to post an update, but I want to keep to my word that I will write more often. So here’s a few random notes as we come to the end of the week.

  1. I haven’t knit since Monday night and I finally get to tonight, while teaching a class. The 1999 sweater is in desperate need of a set of sleeves, so I think I’ll get that finished up tonight.
  2. I’ve lost a few more pounds over the last three days; I am officially UNDER the weight restriction for my trampoline and camp chairs. I may have done a happy dance while in the bathroom today.
  3. I enjoyed breakfast probably more than I should have this morning- the Intermittent fast I decided to do last night was really difficult and I was very hungry this morning.
  4. Parking in Milwaukee is very expensive as of late- I have to pay for parking each day I work (Which is 5 days per week) so my bank account is a little surprised, at least until my first paycheck comes in.
  5. I have run out of size 8 needles; I have to pick up a new set tonight before work so I can actually finish the sweater. I can’t figure out where they keep going, but I apparently don’t use 8s as much anymore.
  6. I dropped my phone, face-down, in the bathroom the other day. Luckily, only the shield I have on my phone was cracked and not the phone itself. I stupidly forgot to save said shield and subsequently had to buy a new one. This one is black matte instead of silver, so it looks like I got a new phone, except the leather case is still pretty gross-looking.
  7. I’m looking forward to the day when I can see my husband during daylight hours.

That’s all for today. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I actually have the whole weekend off, so I’m very excited for sleep and working on freelance stuff and then doing a lot of nothing.

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Sampling Samples

It’s been a long couple of months since the last time I updated anything regarding this blog and it’s been a couple of months since the last time I had a finished project! I have been insanely polyamorous with regard to my knitting and can’t seem to dedicate myself to finish a project as long as the heat is as bad as it has been here in Wisconsin.

However, I am a teacher and need to make samples to show off and sell my classes this season so I have forced myself to buckle down and work on knitting only these samples until things are done and ready to show off…even if it is hotter the the devil out there. I’ll be safely chilly here in the Shaw with my strawberry lemonade and my Air Conditioner.

First things first: Hitchhiker shawl by Martina Behm. 

I’m knitting this beauty out of some worsted weight yarn. This class came along as a whim because I was actively knitting (and totally obsessed with) knitting the shawl so I chose to put it to some good use.

Working at a yarn store is awesome, but it’s also insanely hard: I want to buy one of everything. Literally everything. Especially since the shop carries my favorite yarn in the entire ‘verse: Malabrigo Rios. It’s a workhorse yarn that doesn’t pill or bleed, holds its shape really well and doesn’t wear out over wearing through the entire season. This year, Malabrigo launched their “Anniversario” colorway; a beautiful kettledye in honor of their 10-year anniversary. We got tons of it and, there were two skeins leftover with two different dye lots. I didn’t think anything of it until I saw them myself:Rios 1

Well… that’s some quality control issues going on there…

I bought the skeins anyway, knowing that I could just alternate rows on this shawl and end up with something gorgeous. The wonderful thing about Rios and Malabrigo as a whole, is their yarns have a tendency to blend gorgeously. I have frequently thought that colors would be completely disparate only to find out it blends so beautifully and looks like one skein. I looked at these two skeins and saw similarities in the vibrant pinks and the blues, but that’s pretty much where the comparison stopped. I kept knitting on though, and pulling the strands up along the side where the increases sat made things nice and smooth on the edging.

Rios 2The original pattern calls for a skein of Woolmeise, a fingering weight, but I thought I’d give it a shot knowing my shawl would basically be the same length, if lesser on the teeth. I got 36 teeth with 440 yards of Malabrigo and just barely won the yarn chicken. Ends need to be woven in and the shawl needs a good blocking but it’s beautiful and I can’t wait for the weather to get cool again.

Next up: Gramps Cardigan by Tin Can Knits

I love teaching these versatile classes: Students will be able to pick a size between newborn to 4XL (I call this size redwood tree). For the sample, I chose to knit a 2-4 and I picked a gorgeous combination of lime green and charcoal grey from Rowan’s Purewool Worsted Superwash line.

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I wanted something bright and cheerful but also fit for a boy: I see a ton of sweaters that are adorable for little girls but I love knitting for little boys. I cast on this project a few days ago while the Husband and I were re-watching Kingsmen: an amazing movie I highly recommend (not family friendly, though)! Samuel L. Jackson with a lisp is hilarious. I kept knitting through the next movie and, by the time the night was over, I had increased all the stitches for the raglan and I was finally to the underarms. I took a couple days off from knitting it so I could finish the Hitchhiker, so now I’m back to it with a fervor. I love little man cardigans so they look like grandpas or they look like they have little smoking jackets on. Husband calls them “Baby Hef” jackets.

Next: Follow Your Arrow KAL Shawl by Ysolda Teague

I don’t have many pictures of this at all because I messed up and had to rip back so Its kind of on time out for the time being. This sample is already made for the store so I was able to make it out of whatever yarn I wanted, but I just wanted to make sure I had an idea of what I was teaching the students. This shawl is a really cool option for someone who wants an extremely individual shawl from everyone else since there’s 32 different options for your shawl to look like. I started with clue 1B and went on to 2B. I started on 3B only to find out that my stitch counts were off, which is such a bummer and I had to rip out the short rows so things would match up again. grr. I started this shawl on the 4th of July while we were at the parade and I decided to take a cute photo before we left for the day.

Follow 1The yarn I’m using is Shelridge Farms Soft Touch heather fingering weight. I have a 3+ pound cone of this sand colorway. This is the same yarn I used for my Bridesmaids shawls and I’m currently working on a Flax Light from Tin Can Knits out of that same blue. I’m mildly obsessed with this yarn- if only it weren’t so expensive to get from Canada. Worth it, though. I tell ya.

Finally: Critical Sheep samples! 

I haven’t really talked too much about the work I’ve been doing with Critical Sheep but I’m going to be a vendor for Maker Faire Milwaukee this year in just a mere 2 months! In preparation, I have dyed almost 45 skeins and I have been knitting away on samples; most notably, I’ve finished three little samples: two hats and a crochet swatch.

From Left to Right: Bloodraven, Phantasm and Flutter. The hats can be made with just one skein of D4 Fingering and the little swatch used a mere schnibble of yarn.

I love writing out my final projects: It really puts into perspective all that I’ve done over the last months. Here’s hoping for even more productivity this month! And hopefully some more writing mojo!


Mondays are Terrible

I have the hardest time getting up in the morning. It’s always been like this- I’ve never had an easy time getting up at 7 a.m. with an alarm or…at all. 7 a.m. is just too damn early.

Today was a tough day to leave the house and go to work. It’s gorgeous outside; the sun was shining right away and there’s just the hint of a breeze to bring in a little bit of coolness to an otherwise warm apartment. The sun blazes in the afternoon and heats the apartment like an oven. Have I mentioned that I like it cold? The windows were all open and we put a fan in the window last night. Anything to get the blankets used. Husband thinks I’m weird, but I have to have a blanket on me, even if it’s just covering my butt and nothing else, I have to have something on me.

It’s been a long while since I posted last- I’m having a really rough time in my professional life and I feel very out of luck when it comes to finding a good job where the people I work with respect me and don’t treat me like crap. Now I’m about to rant. I won’t rant. I promise. Bottom line is I think, if things go the way I think they’re going to go, it might be time I step out of the professional world and go to work for myself. Lindee Brauer would be proud.

On the knitting front? Lots going on! I’ve been knitting samples for my classes at Cream City Yarn. I finished an entrelac wrap, which was such an undertaking and took me forever to finish. I powered through on a drive up to Minnesota for the Family Easter weekend, and managed to finish it a few weekends later when I spent 10 hours over two days knitting non-stop. I may or may not have had a cramp after that.


Three skeins Cascade Tangier, size 9 needles, lots of patience.

I’m also working on a Clockwork shawl by Stephen West for another class at Cream City Yarn. This one is fun- it’s a lot of stitches and a lot of paying attention to where I need to increase, but otherwise I picked really pretty colors and it’s lovely.


One skein each Tosh Sock in Big Sur and Sweet Georgia Tough Love Sock in the beige color way, name of which eludes me right now.

I’m still working on the Bifrost scarf. You’ll recognize this from my wedding photos as it’s the project I had going twenty minutes before tying the knot (six months ago)! I’m almost done with it and can’t wait to wear it soon! I’m planning on grafting it so it’s a cowl, not a scarf. Scarves never stay up for me so I’m going to have to bite the bullet. There are two mistakes in this scarf, but I really don’t care.


I’m working, very slowly, on a pair of Turkish Bedsocks out of my own D4 Fingering yarn. This is color way Tradewinds and it’s knitting up beautifully. I am only through half of one right now but I can’t wait to have them both finished!


What’s up with Critical Sheep? LOTS! I’ve been posting to Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and Ello (still not sure how I feel about this network) daily with funny quips and pictures of the yarn colors. I’m running out of funnies, but I can’t wait to sit down with a pen and paper and create many more! I’m also working on creating a kit out of D4 Fingering for a beautiful rainbow cowl. I’m brainstorming the pattern and need to get supplies ready before creating a test knit but that’ll be in the shop within the next two months. It’ll be a lot of winding of mini-skeins, now called Tribbles, but in the meantime you can still get skeins on my Etsy shop!

In the meantime, here’s one of my favorite posts for Monday. It sums up the feelings I have for the day pretty well.



A Tale of Slippers

If you live in  Wisconsin or the midwest or anywhere with…weather, you’ll know just how cold it’s been lately. It’s so cold that your hands are always chilly, the hairs in your nose freeze from the moment you stand outside and hair has a special static going on with it.

My feet have been cold constantly since this snap occurred a couple weeks ago. They were especially cold the other day and I didn’t feel like knitting my sweater again. So I decided to look for clogs or slippers that were a.) Free or in my library and b.) cute and easy. I decided to give the French Press Slippers a try…again. I’ve made these three times now and have hated them every single time so I’m done with them.

Time 1: Finished them pretty quickly out of purple Cascade 220 and 220 Tweeds, sew them up and put them in the top-loading washing machine three times to felt them. Upon being fully felted, the slippers would have fit Sasquatch. They were thrown away immediately after many grumblings and Mom laughing in fits of hysterics over how large they were.

Time 2: I made lime green slippers thinking they would be so freaking adorable. I hand-felted them which was such a bad idea. After three hours of flapping the yarn around in the water, beating the crap out of it and finally wasting $3 to put it in the washer with a couple dirty towels, they didn’t look anything like slippers but more like open wine bottle cozies. They went in the garbage.

Time 3: I gambled again and started these slippers again with 2 strands instead of 3 and I did them exactly like the pattern called for. I seamed them up and put them in the washer for two full loads of wash, then threw them in the dryer until they were dry, got them wet and then put them through the dryer again. The felted bits were VERY felted, but there were pills EVERYWHERE and they fit me really loosely… They fit husband though… Because that’s just my luck. They went into a box and will go to my friend if she wants them but I won’t be heartbroken if it goes in the garbage.

So French Press Slippers: YOU WIN. I’m done ruining more yarn for you to just end up in the garbage. I am moving on. I’m breaking up with you and your stupid adorable face. I hate how cute you are in other people’s project pages; it’s like you’re mocking me in all your cuteness and it makes me feel inept and like a terrible knitter.

I’ve moved onto a cute pair of slippers that are a turkish bedsock style. I’m also making these out of handspun Ashland Bay Merino in a inky black with shocks of blue, red and purple, so I’m much happier now that I have a pair of slippers that will actually fit when I’m done knitting.


Monday Madness


I made an amazing Buffalo Chicken casserole last week for dinner. The grocery store had no spaghetti squash so I picked up some flax angel hair pasta and they also didn’t have ground chicken (c’mon Sentry. get your shit together!) so we did ground turkey. It is so good I’m already anticipating the day when I can make it again…I think this picture makes it look horribly unappealing, but it was seriously one of the best things I’ve made in a long time.

I started the Flax Light last week night. it’s this awesome pattern by TinCanKnits and I’ve pulled out my Shelridge Farms Soft Touch Heather from the Bridesmaids shawls that I am deeply in love with. I’m also using the ChiaoGoo needles that Husband got me for Christmas. Can’t wait to get into the meat of this sweater. It’s my first fingering weight sweater so I hope it turns out really cozy and flattering on me.

I’ve been taken over by monogamous knitting now that I’m under the deadline to finish the baby stuff for my cousin’s shower this weekend. I’ve gotten one thing done and I’m close to finishing the first part of the second. I basically just have a lot of knitting to do and then it’ll be done. Hopefully in time. I may end up working on it on the way to the shower, as I do.

I am beyond tired today- I fell asleep on the floor of the living room last night. I was on the floor because my back really hurt and my sciatic nerve kept spasming, so I got into a really odd-looking position and cuddled up under a fleece blanket and crashed. Hard. Husband told me this morning that I fell asleep at about 9, he woke me up a couple times because I was snoring (in my infinite wisdom, sleep me decided it was a good idea to bury my face in the pillow) and then finally woke me up to go to bed. I slept straight through the night, other than to pry blankets out of my loving husband’s hands because he is a blanket thief. I then overslept and didn’t have any coffee before driving to work. Only one workout and a little bit of knitting with the gals and I’ll be going back home to a shower and more sleep. I slept for 10 hours last night and I don’t feel like it was enough. I could have totally kept going. Shows you just how tired I am lately.

I’m publishing this from my car, on my phone. Because I make it to the gym ridiculously early for the workout and I feel like a weirdo wandering around ‘warming up’ for an hour, which is really just me laying on the foam roller trying to get my back to release. Details.

So I suppose I should put an image in this post- you all like pictures, right? I guess you can see the ‘small and nondescript’ shots of the blankets I’m working on. The crocheting was super cute on the first one I finished and now I’m knitting like a madwoman on another.

That’s all for today. I really can’t wait to sleep tonight.


A DIY Wedding!

While I anxiously await my wedding photos to come back from the photog, I figured I’d talk about all the DIY projects i did for our wedding this past month. I can’t believe I’ve been married for a month! It certainly doesn’t feel like it’s been that long. This is also a REALLY long post; I think it could be the longest I’ve ever written.

So, starting at the very beginning; we created all the save-the-dates and printed them at home on 4×6 postcards; I tirelessly searched for envelopes to hold them, created address labels for return addresses and created the labels for outgoing addresses. Husband said I should have hand-written them, another fight for later, but I had already stuck the labels on the envelopes so…no going back now!

We asked Husband’s father to make us a letter box and he came up with the idea of modeling it after the cedar chest my maternal Grandpa made for me when I was born. We wanted the letter box to act as a storage box when all was said and done so it now holds all the candles we used at the reception. We also asked him to make us Jenga pieces to act as our guest book. He created them out of the maple from a felled tree at Tim’s childhood home. We also got the last of the maple. We will eventually be making a mural or something of the likes out of them all in the coming months. People wrote on almost all sides (my fault, as I didn’t tell them to just write on one side) but we have a ton of extras so we’ll be filling in from there. I spent a lot of time on Pinterest for this wedding and it’s unbelievable how much i did as either a copy or refresh from a Pin. I found my hair style options (which I didn’t even end up using) on Pinterest, we came up with the Men’s colors partially from Pinterest, I found a lot of mason jar options on Pinterest, and the list goes on.

I bought the yarn for the bridesmaids shawls from Shelridge Farms in Canada; her yarns are gorgeous and the Gunmetal colorway wound up matching the dresses we chose perfectly. I bought three pounds thinking it would be more than enough and it was- I have a TON leftover and will be starting a sweater soon with it! I started the bridesmaids shawls in March and finished in early August. i am really looking forward to the photos of the shawls from the wedding. There’s an amazing photo that i hope came out really well of the five of us.

I made Tim’s socks in the middle of all the shawls- I should have written a note saying ‘make sure you get a picture of you in your suit with your socks on’ but my darling husband didn’t think about that.

I bought the yarn for my shawl in April and started shortly after finishing the first shawl for the bridesmaids, knowing mine was going to be an undertaking. i finished knitting it in mid September and it was the last of the wedding knitting. I cast on a Bifrost scarf and was knitting it in my wedding dress 20 minutes before the service as a way to calm down, which didn’t end up working, but it’ll still be a great photo! There is a photo of me standing on the overlook at the park with the shawl on facing away from the camera and I know it’ll be amazing. I’ll share it as soon as I get them! I made personalized hangers for my gals and Husband and my brother and the best man. I ran out, otherwise I would have made more. We asked Husband’s eldest sister to make us some simple table runners in navy blue to use at the reception. She wound up making us 21 runners that will soon be going back to her to be made into napkins and placemats and some to stay as runners. Lots and lots of napkins.

We talked to Husbands’ Boss’ Wife who owns a candle shop right next to where he works about making us some candles for the wedding reception. She made a ton of votive candles for the 40 centerpieces we needed and have a bunch leftover. We’ve been burning them at a pretty good clip and will likely have them gone by our 1-year anniversary. It smelled like a latte at our reception, which is exactly what we were going for. It was light but noticeable as soon as someone moved nearby a candle. I purchased 60 (!) blue mason jars for centerpieces at the reception. Husband stopped by Berre’s Brothers in Watertown and picked up two pounds of leftover coffee in random scents. I had to pick 1.5 more to finish making all the centerpieces of which there were 40. 20 jars went to our florist for centerpiece creation. They were then donated to the rehabilitation hospital across the street from our home. I found some invite kits at Michaels and went to town- i created all the invites, RSVPs, and other details cards and found an adorable lovebirds cartoon stamp and hand-stamped all the invites and all the programs. I also printed all the programs and came home with TONS of them. I’m finding ways to use some of them in our momentos- I have written up a poster-sized chalkboard with the lyrics to our first dance song and have the program under it. It’s hanging up in my office now. Overall we saved hundreds of dollars than if we had gone through a stationer.

I made Mr and Mrs sweatshirts for the two of us to wear on our honeymoon. Admittedly, I did this so we’d get congrats and such but I also really wanted a cute sweatshirt to wear in the future. You bet I’ve worn that thing like crazy. I did some simple iron-on and mine started peeling a couple days into the honeymoon and Tim’s started coming loose by the end of the weekend, so once they fall off completely, I’ll get some screen printing stuff and make them again. The font is the same as one of our wedding fonts. All decor and signage at the wedding was created by me. ALL of it. I created a welcome board (found on pinterest) that included fun details about the wedding; that it was game night, there’d only be one dance, sign a jenga piece, have fun! etc. I created a couple signs with some great quotes (Mawwiage is what bwings us togevah today! from The Princess Bride; I have found the one whom my soul loves from Song of Solomon, a timeline that I’ll be recreating at some point, and a couple other fun things). I spent an entire weekend making these signs and i’m very happy with how they turned out.
I made Jewelry! My Something Old was a bracelet made of buttons from my grandmother’s dress- these buttons are 75 years old. Fate stepped in and I’ve lost the bracelet but my mom and I are going to use the satin from her dress to make up more buttons so I can make another bracelet out of them and so it’s something i can pass on in the future. I also made a bracelet of bells to scare off the evil fairies (Irish tradition). i found some Swarovski crystals at Joann fabrics and used those as the sparkle to go with the bells.

I made necklaces for all the girls made from one strand from my paternal grandmother who passed away this past May. it was a way for me to have both grandmothers in the wedding with me. I also wore a ring made as a reproduction from one of the rings from my paternal grandmother with a large sapphire in the center. Grandma Kehoe was on my left wrist, Grandma Throm was on my right hand. My Something blue was my shoes- bright TARDIS Blue shoes that peeked out under my dress as I walked. My Something New was my dress and my comb (also blue). My Something Borrowed was a hankie from Tim’s maternal grandmother. The next day Tim’s mother gave it to me. None of these were DIY, but figured people would want to know.

I made my skirt for the rehearsal- it served its purpose for the night and had far too many snags in the lace to be functional in the future. I’ll be using the rest of the fabric in the future though! I purchased 8×10 frames and created an in-memoriam for the two sets of grandparents I had lost and the one set Tim had lost. They sat in the foyer with two hurricane candles lit in honor of them watching from Heaven. Another chalkboard sign was created for them as well. I have no idea how people reacted to it, but I know it was wonderful to walk up the stairs and see them before I walked out.

The DIY continues even after the wedding- I created the poster board with our song lyrics for my office at work, I’ll be creating another one for home with all of our stationary- the program front and interior, the save the date, the bridal shower invite, the rehearsal invite and the entire invite for the wedding. I am getting my dress preserved professionally from David’s Bridal and have plans to have a custom shadow box made up for it to go over the bed. In an effort to get the dress out of the closet to free up some space in the guest bedroom we are having it sent out to be cleaned and boxed up so when the time comes to make our shadowbox, it’ll be clean and ready to go. They send it back to me in a display case so hopefully they will show off the back of it when they box it up. Hopefully.

i am drying flowers from two of my bridesmaids’ bouquets (thanks Abbey and Murphy!), the toss bouquet (which we didn’t use because the next people to get married are children) and a centerpiece or two and they’ll become ornaments; I found ornaments that can be opened (they’re cut in half) so I can put full buds if I want and use the ribbon to hold them up. They’ll look great in our Christmas tree this year. I am pressing my entire bouquet and Tim’s boutonniere in the guest bedroom and will be creating a 2D representation of my bouquet in a shadow box or a float frame within the next couple of months. I need the flowers to be good and flat, but not super fragile so we’ll see how that goes. My hope is to have that pretty well along by the end of the year. I did a lot for our wedding- I know I’ve received some accolades from my husband, but I figured I’d share how much work went into the whole day. If you’ve never been married and think a DIY wedding would be easy and fun, it’s definitely not. 100% not easy at all. A lot of sleepless nights went into the creation of our wedding, but overall it saved us thousands of dollars and it really proved that the wedding was OURS and US, not an event pulled together with pieces made from other people or mass-produced in stores. We wanted a unique experience and that’s exactly what we got and I would NEVER trade that in for anything else. No it wasn’t easy, but it was sure fun when all was said and done.

Most of our budget went toward the reception and, by doing a lot of things on our own, it was much easier to keep costs at bay. Exhaustion and relief mixed with excitement on Friday was all I felt. People kept asking me if I was OK or how I was feeling up to the day of the wedding and all I wanted was to get it ‘over with’ because I had done so much already and just wanted to stop freaking out about one thing or another.

Yes, the exhaustion and stress of the whole 10 months were only part of the reason why I was crying the whole service. The other part was that I hadn’t cried for 10 months over everything that had happened to me and Tim and we were finally here and my brother told me he was proud of me two minutes before walking down and I was just a little verklempt. They were only the best tears ever, I assure you.

I still remember little snippets about the night and remember how awesome it all came out. I remember sitting at the front table during dinner just looking out at everyone who came to celebrate with us and was just like ‘wow. I did this.’ and then someone rolled an 18 on the D20 and I stood and kissed my husband in front of everyone who loved and cared for us.

And yes, i put his ring on his right hand and he put my ring on backwards. Things happen.